Even though I promised myself I wouldn't risk the chance of getting hurt again, for some reason, when I'm with you, it all seems worth it.

I got out of a crappy-ending relationship with a partner who clearly still had feelings for his ex shortly after this last christmas.

It was not fun.

But now I am back up, brushed off, and I am smiling, holding my head to the clouds again.

On January 20th I was introduced to a really real smile again. It was like nothing I expected.

I had thought that it would be a long time before I would be allowed to smile so honestly again.

And even more strange is how soon the feelings came back.

This guy is nothing like my first relationship, so I was shocked when my mind fell so hard for him.

I clearly had no idea what I like in a guy.

Happily, I can assure that this guy is kind, honest, humorous, and there is that new-relationship longing.

It is extremely strong between us and I cannot ignore it, not that I want to.

He keeps me going on the bad days.

I am opening my heart to him a little more every time we talk.

So...every day...