Crazy The Cat

Admit it, this is cute.

He's about a one and a half years old and his name is Crazy.

Currently, he is attacking his step-brother and just being a grown-up kitten.

Crazy isn't mine, but he's my little brother's kitten.

He's too cute not to be posted.

Enjoy his adorability.

Sometimes People Are Just Horrible

Sometimes people are just horrible. Once again being friends with a guy has been assumed to be more than just a friendship and now someone hates me / is very unhappy with me. I AM JUST FRIENDS WITH HIM!

Ruby (Lizard) Has A Broken Leg!

My brother's girlfriend's lizard has a broken leg.
For surgery, the cost would be about $3,000.
I love Ruby, the lizard, but...
She's already had one surgery.
And that was about $1,500.
That seemed horrible, so...
Three thousand dollars...
I hope that leg can heal itself.

Horseback Riding + Bowling = Bad Idea

So I learned that horseback riding and bowling do not work very well together now. About three or four days after my first horseback ride ever, I started to feel bow-legged. Then on monday I went bowling...haha, that didn't turn out well for me. A few times I believe a tear came to my eye, it was that bad. I must have looked absolutely ridiculous. Haha, oh well. Even though it hurt, I beat my little brother by 11 pins. And I still was able to have fun!

Summer Is Just Drama, Not At All A Break From It

Summer's getting kinda bla again. Every time I try to do something I get a headache. And every option of hanging out with my friends hasn't worked out and then they've made me feel bad because suddenly I have let them down. Most of the time someone will ask me to go do something and I will have to work or there is some other commitment. So they try to convince me a few more times, and I have to explain each time. That makes me feel like a pretty crappy friend, so I wish those of you who are doing this to me would just understand. I have a job, I have a family that has commitments planned way further in advance than an hour before, and I also sometimes don't feel good or just don't have the resources. Like when I was asked to go swimming today, I would have loved to, but I need a new swimsuit and I would have in no way fit into that person's spare suit. And now I'm complaining to people who probably don't even care or just to the ones who are mad at me for the reasons I just stated.

5 Things I Love (Or Very Much Enjoy)

 

The Sims3 Computer Game

Microbead Pillows

Horseback Trail Riding

Ruffled Skirts

Arizona Half & Half Iced Tea and Lemonade

Horseback Riding For the First Time Today!

A wonderful experience of freedom and unleashed speed, a moment of bliss and perfect connection.

My first time of riding a beautiful stallion, although he was a rough ride and not nearly perfect,

He sure seemed perfect to me. His name is Levi, and I hope to see him again soon - 

from the nestled little spot where I so happily sit.

Horseback Riding = First time today.

The rest of my life = More horseback riding to come!

Horseback Riding...Hopefully

Possibly going horseback riding for the first time tomorrow...now all I have to do is tell my mother...

Okay, so my mother has grown up thinking badly of horses because someone she knew fell off a horse while he was training it to jump over hurdles. The horse tripped and the man became paralyzed, so now she believes that that will happen to me. Kaci, my brother's girlfriend, rides all the time, and I'm going to try to get her to help me convince my mother tomorrow that if anything were to go wrong I would be in good hands. Also, I need to convince her that I will come back alive, uninjured, and not in too much pain. (Since it's my first time riding, I expect that my legs will be sore.)

Forever In My Heart - Rats!

I love my little girls, but Luna has always been such a trouble-maker that I'm always having to prove that I'm more stubborn than she is just trying to get her. But once I have her she's adventuring around on my shoulders, down my back, and all over the area. She often gives me little kisses and I love having her around. I also tried getting Sky out, but I had her out earlier today and she seems too content in her cage to be taken out right now. However this post may sound, both of my little girls mean the world to me, and not one is better than the other. In my heart, they both have equal territory.

Facebook's Status Shuffle Understands!

Now if you're a facebook user and you've ever heard of Status Shuffle, you may recognize some of these.  I never use someone else's words as my status because, to me, a status is how your emotions or feelings can be released. Today I'm thinking about my crush and how he may or may not know I like him. He may or may not feel the same way. Yet I do not know because I'm too scared to flat out say it to him. How can he not know when other's have already guessed it? One I thought already knew, and one I never expected to figure it out, and a few others know because they're my close friends and I trust them with the information of who I like. Now he's going off to college soon, you see, so I hope to tell him before he leaves. Even if it turns out he doesn't feel the same, I can deal with rejection way easier than I can deal with just flat out not knowing. Here are some status's that I thought seemed to make it appear that facebook's status shuffle understands me and how I feel. I know it's just other girls like me expressing what they feel - what I am also feeling - but sometimes you wonder how some internet little gadget could come up with words to voice your inner most feelings...

You have no idea how much your smile and hugs mean to me. They can change my day from glummy and sad to bright and happy real quick.

Hearing a love song and realizing mid-song how much I'm reminded of you makes me realize a few things:

1) I miss you

2) I'm falling for you

Just seeing you makes my day. Hearing you makes me smile. Everything you do doesn't bother me it makes me love you more and more everyday :)

I know you are flirting with me every time i see you. Why won't you just ask me out already?

Maybe one day I'll get the guts to tell you how I feel...But till then we'll stay just friends.

It's hard to find the perfect time to say something you know is gonna change everything...

Summer Rages On

Summer is carrying on, and the stress levels are climaxing. My family is struggling to cooperate - fights anew, words that should not be spoken...now I wish for the worst out of anger, but knowing that my thoughts are wrong and should not be thought at all - that does not destroy the thoughts themselves. Weeks are becoming months as the fights continue to strengthen, but hopefully the downfall will lead us to happier times and not times of worse sorrow and anger.

TODAY (Letting Go / Sleep Equals A Better Mood)

Today I learned to get past my objection to someone just because of past events. It felt great just letting go of the past and letting bygones be bygones. (I hope you understand that term) Today I also learned that...sleep is necessary if you want to be in a good mood...I know, weird, right? Who would have guessed that sleeping enough would help your mood as well as also fuel you up with energy? Haha, well, I hope you all get to sleep well out there and I look forward to seeing you all back here for my next post. Thank you all for your time.

Why Are These Started?

So is it just me or do these posts seem to have gotten real old and real annoying? 

Not A Good Idea

Can someone see a positive ending to this?

Because the endings I think of all involve blood.

Lots and lots of blood...

Some flashing lights...

And PAIN!

NOT a Joke When You Wish This!

How is it a joke to say that you hope someday a tornado hits my house and that I don't know it's coming and don't get downstairs in time?

Apparently that's a funny joke to some people, because today at work one of my co-workers said that to me because I was commenting on how technology is only hurting people. For example, I could be outside doing something that would get me somewhere in life, but I'm addicted to the computer, so I'm sitting here instead.

Work = Where's the time for my Friends?

Been working a lot lately. It's nice having something to do, but I want to spend more time with my friends. Not that those I work with aren't my friends, too. But I do have promises that I would hang out with my bestest of friends, and so far the promise is not being carried out.

Minecraft - I can't get it!

Have you ever played Minecraft?
It's a game full of squares.
Sounds dumb to you, doesn't it?
Well it's not.
I desperately want to play it.
Yet I cannot.
Because the cards are getting declined.
This irritates me.

Math Class / Not Ready To Leave High School

I don't want to leave my high school next year. I know that sounds weird, but I'm not ready to leave behind the memories or the friends I have made. Here's a link to a picture of my math class this year. I wrote about it in my 'The Pictures That I See' blog and I think you may agree with what I wrote. Go ahead, just check it out.
http://thepicturesthatisee.blogspot.com/2012/06/math-class-was-fun.html

Outside and NOT Lazy

When you're trying to feel better, get your lazy butt offline and go enjoy some fresh air. I always find myself tired, inside, and bored. Then I find the strength to go outside, and before long, I was running around playing tennis with my little brother. Burned some weight and had a blast doing so. (P.S. totally didn't loose weight, I don't really even need to)

Facebook Cover Photos That I Thought Were Awesome!

SUMMER!

Summer is upon us and it's great not having the stress of school breathing down my back anymore. It's a wonderful time when everyone's spirits are lifted and new friendships blossom. Hopefully this summer I will meet someone new to befriend. I love when I can find others who I can hang out with without worrying that they are judging me or saying crap about me behind my back. That's something I hope to avoid.
If you are an avid follower of mine, let me know how you hope to plan your summer this year. Any exotic adventures? How about a new hobby you recently found out? Well, even if you don't wish to share, I wish all of you out there a wonderful summer and new experiences to better your life.

ACT Testing Soon

With ACT testing just around the corner I noticed how fidgety I am becoming. I'm really nervous to take this test because in a college's eyes - this test defines who you are and how hard you work in school. Hopefully I will do fine and I will at least get an average score...

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Change - Quote

"Ever have one of those days when suddenly everything that was suppose to happen changed...

and you were freaked out because the change made things better?

Yea, I just had one of those days."

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

A Closed Mind = A Failure At Everything (Or So They Believe)

So last week I learned from my best friend that I apparently never listen to other's opinions and only do what I want to do. It's funny that someone who expects me to only like who she likes and do what she does would say that. Sometimes I really do wonder what I am even holding onto. Is it friendship or just a sense of companionship?
Then today my mother told me that I have a closed mind and never listen to her side of anything. I don't even know what to think anymore. I do what other's think I should do without question at times because that's what our relationship has become, yet when I do so, apparently I am just doing what I want to do somehow. Really, I don't think I can win.
I believe that I have lost my best friend and never really truly had a close relationship with my mother.
I don't understand why people like life so much when all life is for me is one disappointment after another.
Never do I do the right thing, think the right thing, or say the right thing.
I might as well be a puppet on their hands for all the respect I am given.
Yet still I will try to hold on to whatever relationship I can maintain with these people. Even as I see that my role in my best friend's life is being taken over by another and the memories we share have started to mean nothing, I will hold on because without that friendship I feel lost. New friendships will have to be made next year, that much I am sure of. Also...I refuse to let them drive me any lower than they already have. My emotions are not a tool they get to play around with and I am no longer their puppet. From now on I will be myself and I will speak my mind. If another blames me for being closed-minded (who is really just closed-minded herself) well, then they will soon learn that I know how to turn my back and walk away.

2012 - This Better Not Be The End

They had better not be gone. Today was a very emotional day and I knew I would cry as I did. I had planned on wishing people luck and saying goodbye to those I may truthfully never see again, but when I saw the graduates walking to the front of the school I just lost it and started crying even harder. Therefore, I left...and I will now have to wish all of you from the now graduated class of 2012 - good luck and I hope to see you again.

Gravestone Symbolism

Alpha and Omega

First and last letters of the Greek alphabet. Symbolizes the beginning and the end.

Apple

Apples represent salvation, sometimes sin.

Broken Bud or Branch

Someone who died an untimely or premature death. Usually seen on a younger person's gravestone.

Broken Chain Link

Symbolizes a loss in the family.

Broken Wheel

Symbolizes the end of life; a break in the circle or wheel of life.

Rabbit

Humility, gentleness, self-sacrifice.

Shoes

Empty shoes symbolize the loss of a child. Usually one shoe is overturned.